You may have picked up on some subtle hints in my previous posts and noticed some changes here on the blog. So let’s talk about that today. After many, many sleepless nights, working all night and deep conversations with my husband, I’m now a full time writer here on the blog (and no longer employed). Sometimes you’re at a crossroads in your life, and I most certainly was. I’m so lucky he’s a part of my life, because not every husband would be this supportive. I worry about him carrying the load for (what I hope will be) this brief period in our lives.
My previous work schedule left me feeling like a shell of a person. The shame of it all is that I planned my wedding during this deeply stressful time. Without going into too much detail, my territory grew so large that I ended up covering one-third of the entire North American continent. I left a decent job only to find myself in a horrible one. In my early 20’s I would have loved to have a job like this. But I’m in a different place in my life and I have growing kids who need me. Things are a bit different. Had I known this was the path my job would have taken, I would have never accepted it. So even though the job is no longer, still, even a week later, I still wake up stressed and with my heart beating out of my chest.
Tuesday was the first day of my new life. I’ve mostly wandered around the house. I felt numb, but my mind was racing while I considered my next steps. As the week progressed, I got the kids’ lunch money accounts refilled, and filled out forms that were piling up. I even noticed some subtle “kid things” like friendship problems, homework issues, and other family things that I might not have noticed when I was under duress. So I spent time on these things. We even played Uno this week. Several times. 🙂
Then I got sick with the flu. Once I started to feel better, I started running again. After today I’ll be at 9 miles for the week. Fitness is the first thing that falls off the list when I don’t feel good about life, and I intend to change that. I know eventually this will all subside. In a lot of ways, this is opening up my mind to new work options, partnerships, and consulting gigs that I had been too scared to consider before.
Sometimes the best decisions I’ve made in my life are when I’m yanked out of my comfort zone.
I’m not exactly sure…do stay tuned also for more free printables. The creative juices are flowing, so you may anticipate more blog changes are a-comin’. While I don’t quite know where it’s all taking me…somehow I realize — that I DON’T ALWAYS need to have all the answers.
In the meantime, THANKS for keeping me company on this crazy journey 🙂